yurrr end list

i have favorite songs this year. here they are:
* submerse - gloom
* Kelela - rewind
* 99 SUBLIME - Moonspear - Hell Hounds
* Gantz - Spooky Action At A Distance
* Kali Uchis - Loner
* Gabe 'Nandez - Sifu
* Alina Baraz - Make You Feel
* Loaf Muzik - Percasets
* emune. - Abigail
* Shay Lia - One

so i'm sitting at some coffee shop in the chi on a wifi connection named notoriousthugs. i think it's tight. apparently the word "tight" isn't cool anymore. i don't give an eff though. you know, that happens when you're old - you start caring about that kind of stuff less and less. not that i stopped caring about being cool, b/c i definitely still care about cool... just not as much. just the other day i was shopping for sweat pants. wtf... sweat pants. i've never given a shits about sweat pants. didn't end up buying any, but the intention was there.

i think caffeine makes my hands sweaty. or maybe it's nerves. or both. been thinking a lot about school and how that's going to pan out. also been thinking about not working my job after december. it's a bit scary, but i like that there's a light at the end of this shitty job tunnel and another tunnel in the form of school in about a month. i hope i can find some nice sweatpants by the time classes start. going to be spending a lot of time trying to get comfortable while doing homework.

have some good holidays, you guys!

... and all those ships

sometimes i'd really rather be spaghetti.

in other news, the homies from 99Sublime did some dope ish with this one

the fall

there's something melancholy but at the same time exciting about the fall. idk what it is. i do know what it is... but i also don't know. it's a seasonal feeling with other things, i guess. kind of like how june depresses me. fall just feels like an exciting time.
past fall albums:
tamaryn "the waves"
interpol "turn on the bright lights"
ramona cordova "the boy who floated freely"
savath + savalas "folk songs for trains"
aphex twin "i care b/c you do"
milosh "you make me feel"
bob marley - (all of them)

you know what? i don't like when people "don't get" reggae. eff off
anyway,

electric birds "gradations"
sam prekop self titled
that one devotchka album
animal collective "feels" + "prospect hummer"
grouper "dragging a dead dear up a hill"
(i guess fall isn't a hip hop season for me.)
but yeah, this year's fall album is a few years old:
rhye "woman"
3 days is so beautiful to me and so is this track:
also, it's fitting that the original title for "woman" was "the fall"

perfect timing... but not really

"life is weird and i can't sleep, but here's some music" should be the name of this blog. i wish i could be completely honest on here. but the only thing i can be truly honest about is what i've been listening to or watching. even then, sometimes i don't want to be. so i'll leave with a quote from the last movie i watched: "These are hard times for dreamers." i'm taking this quote a few ways. it's hard to dream when you can't sleep. b/c i can't sleep. the last dream i remember was from a few weeks ago. david spade pushing me into a locker and me wanting to choke the shit out of him. other stuff happened in the dream (not between david spade and me), but those will go to the grave. nothing explicit, you weirdos. just things i want to keep to myself b/c they're important and relevant. it was one of those dreams that makes you realize how important and telling dreams are. made me realize how you probably know more than you think b/c thinking isn't always going to tell you the truth. also, eff an ego. you're better off being yourself. (note to self). (other note to self: trust yourself). the other way i'm taking that quote (the one about dreamers), is how it relates to letting go of your ego. the most memorable dreamers to me were the ones who were themselves completely. i didn't personally know any of them, but their personalities just seem so genuine and that they're so celebrated seems to attest to my assumption. i think my best friends have pretty genuine personalities. they're all beautiful people. people who aren't afraid to be who they are. almost like they don't even know what it's like to pretend being someone they're not. like their personalities have no reservations and make no apologies. what i'm saying is, i need to stop trying to be too cool. i'm probably not even cool enough to be "too cool." but you know what? that's okay. i don't need to be.

now the fun part: here's a mix i made for a recent event. enjoy!




Various - Sabbath After Midnight

i only sleep when i'm not supposed to

last night i wrote a post about infinity and the number 1. i'm not posting it b/c maybe i'm going crazy. it's dumb how i wake up every night at 3am. it's dumb as hell how the thought of space and all the possibilities of the universe cross my mind at the same time as having the insecurities of wanting a good hair day sunday for an event. life is funny like that. the big things make you feel small enough to think about the little things like the molecules that makeup the reason you're living with a perpetual bad hair day. i'll probably just wear a hat anyway. it's almost 5am and i'm thinking about looking up the history of hats. good morning, everyone.

btw, lord apex has a new ep. it's cool.



(this is what i wanted to post last night, but i'm listening to this at the moment)

my tabs

earlier today one of my oldest/closest friends asked me about an animal collective video we used to watch with panda bear and avey tare freaking out on their guitars in a record store. i found it, but it took me to a weird place. somewhere between 2004-early 2007. i remember taking a train to new mexico, listening to do make say think and campfire songs almost the entire way. we met some interesting people on the train whose names escape me, but i remember a troop of boy scouts who thought i was from NYC and a girl from orange county who seemed friendly, but was probably a turd nugget in real life (talked about coke a lot... not the soda). the point of going to albuquerque was to check out UNM, but we just went record shopping the whole time. i remember seeing sung tongs at the borders where victor, our cab driver, dropped us off (i remember his name because we share it). i wanted to buy it, but didn't want to spend the money on CDs - especially since i already had the mp3s on my laptop (i eventually bought it many times, for the record). listening to their acoustic set as i write this gives me a happy-sad feeling of nostalgia and a feeling of what ifs as avery tare wails "i wish i had more time." i wish 2004-2007 was longer than 3 years. those were some of my favorite years. 2006 was the year i moved to the place i felt closest to home. the brain is funny... just thinking about walking to work in SF puts a feint smell in head that i haven't smelled since i was there last. paris kind of had that smell, but even then, paris didn't feel the way SF felt. close, but no cigarello.
i'd love to share the other tabs on my browser and write little stories about them too, but "The psychology of the Mother-in-law" (but she's not even a mother in law. just a mad mother of a girl i date) would be a whole other blog full of airing grievances that i'm not willing to share here. besides, this is a music blog and you guys are here for music.

so i leave you here with a link of the acoustic set that's making me feel the way i do right now.

Emune

this kid is something else with the 404. i used to hate so much on simple drum patterns, but it's hard to fake the funk when it comes to feeling. and right now i'm feeling like i need a haircut and a hair transplant at the same time. this humidity, man - doesn't let me feel like the herbal essence girl. not that i want to feel like her, because she's a girl and i'm a man with big muscles and a lot of fluff on my chest (i'm lying my butt off right now EL OH EL).

ANYWAY, Emune has some serious skills in creating a mood out of what seems to be simple drum patterns and layered loops. don't let that fool you though, there's nothing simple about what emune does. his tracks build and go places most beat tapes fall short at. so guys, vibe out and enjoy the grooves.



emune - auras (bandcamp link to free download)

happy the 4th of i've been working on a podcast

who doesn't like hearing people talk about things? who doesn't like a host who puts on his best NPR voice? (not ira glass though... he's cool, but i don't sound like him. also, this is how i talk.)
anyway, here are episodes 4 & 6 for that ace.





and again the itunes link to subscribe from there:
itunes

thank you guys!

i wanted to say thank you guys for all the submissions to the label and podcast! there were many/almost too many. my apologies for not getting back to everyone. though i will say, you're all very talented and have some serious skills! please don't be discouraged if i didn't reply - not everyone's music fit in with what the label or podcast is doing, but that doesn't take away from the pool of talent from the submissions.

so i'm three episodes deep, with the latest ep featuring an interview with scott xylo. dude is growing into a beast of a beat maker. his latest track is full of the most chill vibes money can buy - money can't buy chill vibes, but it can buy you a website for your label and a place to host your podcasts. so that's what i did with the royalties i earned from making the beat for "laffy taffy." (i didn't really make that beat, but i lied about it once).

ANYWAY, peep game, guys.

here's the podcast:
on iTunes

and the label website:
eclecticbpm.com

SEND ME YOUR DEMOS

the postings here are becoming less frequent... my apologies. BUTT (two Ts because it's a big but), i'll be posting more soon! i'm working on doing something i've always wanted to do - starting a label. i'll be releasing limited run cassettes for artists on the come up who's music i enjoy - mostly in the electronic and hip hop genres, but not exclusively (i'm all for moody/music for night drives type jams).
so, if you're reading this and have music you'd like to release (or have released already but would like in cassette form), please send it my way. i'm also going to start a podcast with mixes of stuff i'd typically post here, along with interviews of artists who i'm a fan of but could use a little more exposure. so don't be a scurred turd! link me your music at victor(dot)victrola(at)gmail(dot)com